#265 where to have fun?

i haven't done anything fun with Nick in a long long time. we're always eating and eating. and.. playing xbox. that's all i think.

there are no fun activities to do. or maybe it's because of all the time restrictions that we have due to army. sigh. i want to go overseas with my friends. the genting trip had a slight hitch and now i don't even really count it as a trip. i want a relatively longer one, maybe to HK? since Bangkok is a little too dangerous for my mum to allow me to go to. but i really want to go before university term starts. and it's sad because Pei is already going to start school, which means we don't have a common schedule.

friday was driving, then lunch and then rotting around at TM waiting for that dumb Ding who had interview at airport. me and Euge really rotted at tampines. headed home in the evening and went to Nick's house thereafter. skyrim was terrible. i suck at games so i doubt i can ever ever play skyrim and successfully finish it without getting myself into dead ends. not a good idea to tap on 'steal' button right in front of the shop-owner at all. one trouble leads to another and it all gets really bad and frustrating haha.

met up with the girls yesterday, i didn't make it to yingjun's birthday dinner on friday ): waited for Tingwei's lunch break, and i finally got my black tbars from CH's girlfriend! she is so prettyyyy^^ bought the tbars from her for $24, there was a small hole poked at the back of one shoe so she gave me discount! the hole doesn't affect the shoe so its fine(: pity she cannot fit into the shoes though.. my feet are sized weirdly too this pair is a little too spacey for me but i think i cannot fit into the shoes if they are a size smaller..

i want to have funnnnn, but where to go to? someone tell me pleaseeee.

sigh i hate myself for expecting so much. i should learn to expect less. less is more, i hope. i miss Nick. hope that he's fine in outfield. 2D1N, should be fine right i guess(: I WANT TO GO OVERSEAS WITH HIM but we don't have an opportunity yet after these 6 weeks its gonna be even more unlikely i think by the time that he can make it, school would have started.. this is so depressing.

i want a rabbit. but i may end up buying a hammie.

/hey i just met you.

#264 outlook

blogger layout has changed! first time blogging since the new layout..

i'm feeling really depressed today. felt this way on monday too. monday was good though: shopping with Xint! i got a free haircut at Toni & Guy (Academy) from Shaun! apparently he 'double layered' my hair (just found out today) good buys on monday but something was so dirty- and that's why i was so depressed because even though it seems like such a small issue, it was huge to me. thankfully i managed to change it the next day(:

tues was hanging out with my mum and wed was a day for myself. love it. i need more days to myself when i can just do anything i want. today was Groupon hair treatment with Jinni, and then window shopping (we didn't buy anything because there isn't anything nice)

i feel so utterly rejected now. okay, actually it's pretty good because it's really difficult (for me because i'm that dumb) to teach both secondary 4 pure bio & chem, but she doesn't want tuition anymore! she's smart and knows her stuff, but just lacked confidence. i hope she'll be able to do well, but because of her i feel so lousy right now )':

starting work at Braun Buffel soon i think. not working much every week but at least some cash coming in even though pay isn't that good too.

i need to change my perspective on my life. i need to learn to look forward. i know i've been saying this since a million years ago but i've yet to become the optimistic and cheerful person that i want to be. i think i used to be a happier person. what happened.

LKCSP interview next wednesday. i have no idea why i'm even shortlisted for this; i didn't apply for this/double degree programme. shall just go for it and who knows it may turn out to be a good thing(:

driving tomorrow, and probably meeting Nick also? hope he books out early. i really reallyyyyy need something good to perk me up right now.

am so thankful for my supportive mum.

and i suddenly miss the Nutellas A WHOLE LOT.

#263 >:(

why do parents attempt to make life so miserable for us and themselves? we are 19, for goodness sake. not 9. how is this possibly fair to us?

why can't we decide for ourselves? it's not even that big of a deal, so why bother making a fuss out of small issues?

and i know my skin is damn terrible now; even worse than anything i ever had before. i'm trying to make it better already so it's all my own fault? i never willed for this to happen, if that's what you're implying.

good lord, i am so angry right now.

but last night was good. nick stayed over and we watched a midnight movie- The Vow. i love rachel mcadams.

and despite my terrible skin being so obvious to the world, nick says that its fine. and that he will not abandon me. this reassurance is really good as i'm feeling horrid about my skin and i am pretty sure many would think that i look disgusting.

lo and behold though, he has abandoned me tonight for CS-.-

shall try to sleep now and hope that i would not get puffy eyes tomorrow.

#262

i am such a bad listener. and a lousy tutor.

and i am feeling so frustrated over some minor issue but to be fair to myself this has potential to affect me greatly.

good dim sum lunch with mummy today.

hoping that my slack day at home tomorrow will be good.

i need to get a job soon, else i won't be able to fund for overseas trips.

#261 past week events

blew a bomb last week on mostly.. FOOD.

MONDAY:

headed to nick's house and we slacked around and watched Star Wars III! awesome movie! went for a swim after that and headed to 85 temporary market for dinner. simple day but great nonetheless (: but his bike is so screwed up need to get it fixed soon..

the food looks so gooooooood right! YUMZ.

TUESDAY:

sentosa outing with Euge and Ding! we bought nice food and went to chill at the beach, good life. wish we could do it everyday seriously..

damn good cookies!!!!!!!!!!!!

our food: cheese dip, focaccia bread, ham and grilled chicken. GOES WELL TOGETHER. everything was damn tasty when put together!

then we met Pei, Cheryl & Christina for dinner at Nakhon (:

WEDNESDAY:

no photos, just met Nick for a simple (late) lunch and then dinner with Pei Euge Cheryl Ding. awesome food once again.

THURSDAY:

shopping/eating day!(:

started with lunch at the Handburger. shared onion rings and lunch set meal with Nick. his treat!

my half of the burger. the burger is damn nice seriously i want to go back there again. though i always eat the same thing when i have the set lunch but its so good!

gelato buffet at Lippolis! i treated Nick to this, bought the coupon sometime ago with Jinni to treat our boys^^

lousy quality picture taken with the front camera.

our first round of gelato! peach and green apple (: tasted like hichew sweet and vitamin C though-.-

some tartlet things brought to us by the owner! i only like one flavour though because it's caramel! the other two were some extremely milky thing and a coffee one that gave me a headache so Nick finished them up.

all our rounds of gelato! i think we had a total of 14 scoops. felt like i had diabetes after that, seriously. somemore at that point of time Nick was reading the MOH website and they mentioned diabetes haha.

after that whole lot of gelato we just wanted to have something light for dinner, so we decided on Soup Restaurant! didn't take any photos of the food but we had a portion meant for one person only.. soup, egg with minced pork and water chestnuts. stuffed to the brim after that, and i still had more food when i got home because my mum cooked.

FRIDAY:

i went for NUS Law interview, overestimated the time i needed to get to the Bukit Timah campus and arrived REALLY REALLY early-.- went to the toilet to waste a gazillion hours. waited very long before i went in as well. and it didn't go well at all. bah whatever.

headed to Nick's house and.. what did we do? i kind of forgot already.. think we talked about interview stuffs, and his army vocation? watched 2/3 of Star Wars IV too, and had some Pizza Hut boxy dinner (shared)

contains one baked pasta (cheesy shrooms), one personal pan pizza (some turkey bacon thingy), 6 pieces of chicken karaage, 4 pieces of honey chicken wings and 10 star star thingys (8 in this photo as we had one each already hehe)

it is actually quite worth it somehow, even though the photo doesn't look like its alot!

SATURDAY:

went to 5 Star Travel Agency with Euge TW YJ to book our genting trip! waited super long at library reading after that, for Nick's medicine interview(s) to end..

then headed to Barcelos @ Vivo for dunch!

my nice beef wrap^^

his skewers (beef and chicken!)

SUNDAY:

Law test in the morning, my dad sent me and Ding to and fro! saw only a few familiar faces there while Ding saw a million. test was bad. don't ask.

met Nick in the afternoon to buy kinect games! awesome fun! (previous post)

had dinner at Bali Thai, with my mum too(:

MONDAY:

Buffet Town! two words: damn worth.

really good spread, lots and lots of salmon due to this promotion thing that they were having. pictures still in my phone shall post them up soon (hopefully)

they had cold food: sashimi, sushi, crab, crayfish, prawns, oysters, scallops. cooked food: tempura, teppanyaki stuff, curry, pizza, pasta, cooked chinese stuff (don't know how to classify) and MOREEEE stuff. really really good spread. so much better than Sakura (stupid smelly sashimi)

there was pretty decent dessert too- waffles, crepes, ice cream, cakes, fondue, fruits..

was TOO FULL after the buffet sigh. tummyache and all. but will head back there again!^^

TUESDAY:

met Nutellas today @ Simpang! went to library with Jinni before that. waited so damn long for bus 10 URGH. had meepok! and sour beancurd ew.

BLIC ice cream was goooooooood. then lynny the SUPER NINJA went to get a cake for Jinni! cake tasted like meringue and the fruits were quiteeee nice (coated with the chocolate it was less sour) but overall the cake was nice!(:

YAY good day today; and my whole previous week was good too! happygirl93^^

driving tomorrow, then Sentosa tooooooo~

#260 awesomeness

awesome new kinect games are awesome. i wonder how long this feeling of awesomeness will last when i play these games. am i kiddy or are they really goooooood? seriously i was having so much fun playing with Nick.

i know i said i would blog about the food and all. honestly i'm on my way there. already got the photos from my phone to computer i promise i will blog LATEST by tuesday. promise to myself and to you- rare gem who reads my blog :)

so, nus law test today. laughable. shall not talk about it anymore.

presenting the two awesome games!

#259

i said i would blog so i should right? although i am highly pissed off right now..

okay i really cannot bring myself to blog now. my life is so fucked up right now i fucking hate it at home its not even a place to call home for now.

thanks for arguing with me every night. i don't even know where to begin about how screwed up everything is.

kbye.

#258 day out!

today was eating day. actually practically every day has been eating day, sigh. accumulating fats only:/ major weight gain, not cool.

shall blog about the day out tomorrow!

Law interview tomorrow morning, i pray that i won't get lost finding the campus @ bukit timah. and also that the interviewers won't think that i am stupid because i don't know anything much about Law. i can only be myself and hope that they like me?:(

really hoping for the best only.. i don't want to embarrass myself that's my biggest concern! i think its really difficult to enter Law anyway so i don't have high hopes given that there will be so many other people who are so much more qualified than me.

on a side note, SMU has accepted me! :) means that only NUS is left, which all depends on how tomorrow's interview goes..

MY PAY HASN'T COME YET WHYYYYY. should have asked Heidy if my paycheck has been sent when she called me just now; why on earth did i not do that?-.-

#257 POP!

today was POP! :)

woke up at 530am, seriously i wonder how is it even possible to wake up at this ungodly hour i've not woke up at this timing before. ever. perhaps a long time ago maybe?

Nick's parents came to fetch me to go to Marina Platform in the morning!

view from our seats! really a pretty sight to behold :) but the sight wasn't enough to prevent us from getting bored; we waited pretty long for the parade to start.

ze army boys marching in with heavy bags/rifles!

still marching~ one rectangle=one coy.

introducing the various companies, hopefully this one is Ninja i kind of mixed up the photos already so i'm not too sure.. after this was an interlude where they played cheesy music i was so damn bored at this point of time seriously.

i know it's very hard to tell but this photo has them throwing their jockey caps up!!!(:

swarms of people. really really A LOT of people we took so long just to get down the stairs..

me and ze boy! :)

had Quiznos with his family, it was nice^^ Quiznos staff were pretty surprised because they had so many customers so early in the morning already!

Cold Stone was just right beside Quiznos, so we went to buy it too! preparation for our Strawberry Banana Rendezvous (was it called this i kind of forgot oops)

TADAH! yummy ice cream i think it's super worth it as a treat once in a while!

coffee (something something with caramel and chocolate too), very tasty as well!

photo with the boy again, though he was SMELLY.

was playing around with some filters on my phone and the morning sight from Marina Platform was transformed to look like it was in the evening? :)

okay my font for this post is Arial because i'm really lazy to change those fonts that were different to my normal font.. it seems reaaallyyyy troublesome i think i'm just clueless about such things. but i want my font to be all the same so.. easiest way is to change all to some default font. [edit: okay whaaaat i changed all to Arial and it all became my normal font]

POP is an experience that i think i would only need to go for once in my lifetime heh. smelly boys are smelly. oh this is a short video of the BMTC Roar (?), i think its really cute that they would do such stuff during BMT hehe imagine them learning and practicing this! i don't know if its watchable though i used the blogger thing to upload.. hope it is!

okay sleepy me is sleepy. i am quite sad though that stupid boy did not reply me since 3plus i have no idea what are our plans for tomorrow URGH. we did say something but it wasn't even confirmed.. i hate it when things are like this that's why i wanted him to confirm about stuff earlier..

sore throat now, shall watch 2 episodes of whatever show i feel like watching and then sleep.

note to self: upload photos from camera to computer to facebook for S. (i have more photos in my camera all these are from my phone only!)

#256 -.-

i felt so upset about nothing. not nothing, but i think that if i do not say it out it will seem less real :/

you are such an idiot. no one will even know who i'm referring to :)

but honestly, is it even that difficult to tell me? i would have been happy for you! instead now i think that you are a loser through and through. i think we won't ever get to see you again. even if you will go, i won't want to already. pointless. just like how this friendship was to you.*inserts another random insult*

driving today, i had a major lack of concentration sigh.

POP tomorrow, i would have to wake up at an ungodly hour of 5+, something which i have never done before! well, as far as i can remember i guess. so glad that tomorrow he will be out though :')

i need to get over it. now.

#255 learning

learning not to expect to much; so that i'll be let down less. less expectations=less disappointments.

went for interview at NBS today and i must say, the professor was so much easier to talk to than the one at SMU. no stress at all today :') and he was trying to convince me to enter NBS too. i am giving it serious consideration. not that i am being picky; status of NTU for me has changed from 'confirm not going' to 'i might go there after all' so.. let's just see if SMU accepts me? if they do then i would have choice(s).

NUS test and interview next week. oh noooo i don't really feel like going for it anymore i don't know why. i think i would end up handing up a really slipshod essay and most probably screw up the interview too sigh:/

sorry, enough talk about university issues. don't even know why am i apologising since no one reads-.-

i have been spending so much these few days. order with butteredgun got confirmed today, so i HAD to transfer funds to them!(if not i'll get blacklisted) pity the romper is out of stock and there were no dead buyers, so i couldn't get it in the end.. got only the dress and it's pretty expensive so i hope the quality's alright. bought capri pants form Gmarket as well along with another dress and dotting tools. cannot wait for everything to arrive, i love receiving new packages(:

looking forward to the fun we will have next week! hopefully. gelato buffet @ chijmes, rollerblading, maybe USS again? heh.

#254

i just spent a whole lot of money.. all online. bought my pants (really hoping that its nice) and some other stuff. but spent a lot on deal.com, 79$ to be exact! looking forward to it though.

i feel so sad about something.. i feel that we are drifting and i don't even know why. am i over-thinking it? i'm so unsure about everything right now, what a bad start to April. interview yesterday was positively f-ed up and the one tomorrow.. i don't even know what to expect so i can't do anything about it ):

sunway trip cancelled. no concrete plans for next week because you just keep saying 'see first'. what the hell.

#253 post-angst (not over)

angsty post last night, i couldn't help it.

i look terrible today and my interview's later in the afternoon i want to sleep but i'm at work so i can't. thank goodness there isn't a test or something, but i am having difficulty expressing myself coherently so i think i will screw up the interview but i really hope that i would not.

seriously somehow life wants to screw me up so bad. i feel extremely foul today i have no idea what will make me happier. thankfully i made myself a tasty salad for today nice food never fails to make me feel better but now that my salad is all gone i'm sinking back into my pool of despair, once again.

i wish i wasn't that emotional. i wish i could be stronger and control my feelings better so that people will not affect me so much. and i wish i had better complexion. today its worse than ever i should just dig a hole and hide in it forever. i look terrible. in urgent need of a mask when i get home.

we are going to stay in singapore. GREAT.

#252 FUCKED UP

I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY NOW I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WORDS TO USE TO DESCRIBE THE IMMENSE AMOUNT OF ANGER I AM FEELING I'M SO ANGRY THAT I'M CRYING SO MUCH FUCK MY LIFE THERE'S SMU INTERVIEW TOMORROW HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GO FOR IT TOMORROW I HAVE WORK TOO. DON'T LET JUST SAY LA STILL HAVE TO FUCKING GO A BIG ROUND JUST TO SAY THAT WE CANNOT GO THANKS ALOT MAN.

I SO FUCKING WANTED TO GO.

#251 milos!

am at Nick's waiting for him to be done so that we can go for early dinner before he books in again.

was at Ms Lee's house just now. her boys are simply adorableee!! milo and mini milo (raphael and ezekael) are bigger now! raphael is shyboy and ezakael simply enjoys attention :) super cute, the both of them!

am looking forward to after POP this sunday^^ we might be going to sunway after all!!! shall not say too much it might jinx the trip but i really really really hope that we'll be able to go!

nothing to look forward to tomorrow, Rachel's on urgent leave sigh. tuesday is free cone day which means i'll get to meet my girlies, but i have SMU interview before that so i really hope that goes well? and if we want to book the malaysia trip must book by tuesday also..

photos at the bottom because i'm using my phone to blog.. mini milo smiles in his sleep this is simply too cute to be true :)

#250 DONEEE

i am done with my applications!! okay i still have one more to go but yayyyy i did three today okay that is like such a great achievement for a lazy person like me! what a relief it was when i managed to scan my papers *grins* thanks to my cousins seriously i would have died without them.

i am on my way to be less lazy and more efficient already! :)

watched THG with nick just now, and halfway he was like: is this movie PG? i was like: yeah why. then he said that due to the rating and that the book is some kiddy one (i told him), it kind of turns him off from the movie. 'nuff said i don't want to say anymore i think this paragraph is pointless i just wasted half a minute of your life.

have to wake up pretty early tomorrow because we are heading to Ms Lee's house! whole class! it's always been the six of us meeting up only so i'm looking forward to seeing the rest, probably would be a long time before meeting them again?

goodnightz i shall go and bathe and sleep soon. or maybe finish my last application.

note to self: t.m.t.j.