#203 cranky much

i am ultra cranky now but shall try to keep my cool. honestly, i needed to sleep more why did you have to wake me up:/

feeling unwell now, STUPID FLU Y U COME TO ME.

i hope tht things will be better now, what w spa being over. i'm still sad tht i screwed up my bio so badly cos it rly will affect my future uh :/ okay, sob story no more imma be strong and carry on w life.

i want this wkend to be over soon cos i feel like i won't be doing anyth fun this wkend at all i want to go out for dinz w so many ppl next wk! :) hahaha.

had caramel frappe just now yay! but last day tdy alr, sianzzzz no more half price frappe! :< but tdy nick bought th venti one to share w me heehee ♡ satisfied my cravings for tdyyy! probably tmr i will want another one again though..

okay done idk what to update anymore my life is so so so boring..

#202 wholeheartedness

wheeeeeeee haha tdy was good :) productive day! like, not in terms of work lah didn't do anyth at all but had fun! went for a swim too but nv turn black heehee cos thr was shade just naiseee :)

had a fulfilling talk, and thr's things tht i have to achieve uh. hope i do it properly and tht things get better!!

uhhhhz, sigh needa get started on work alr. i need to really be motivated and turn on my engine which idk is thr or not hopefully it is or else i'm so screwed!! :'( no self pity uh it sounds b.s, no point whatsoever i think so i shall not be tht way just gna striveee as hard as i can.

shall do everyth w an open heart, and as wholeheartedly as i possibly can! so important now i hope i can do ittt. shall be determined and push my limits, cannot be so cui and give up on myself easily. need to rly just try hard. there's no second chance.

#201 is it just me? or..

are we? i feel like sometimes we are :/

SPA clinic tmr morning! sighers i think mr lim feels like i rly did badly for SPA uh! but glad tht he has given me another chance to practice before the real thing nxt wk uh! :)

i feel so uninformed abt everyth tht's going on ard me, like even when i wrote GP essay on elections, i couldn't think abt any single eg even though elections are like, NOW. hahaha own right :(

anwwww. whut? :O wonder who.. oh well i rly can't be bothered now but i feel so curious and everyth.. I WANNA WANNA WANNA KNOW!!

grr but i can't get distracted for too long, needa do econs elearning now and read both bio+chem SPA urgh 2 SPAs in a row!!!

let's not go bonkers :>

#200 Source Code

just came home from Source Code! good movie :))

but i'm DAMN FULL RIGHT NOW. like seriously damn full cos of Garrett's caramel popcorn which tastes like Werther's imo. we shared a freakin SMALL okay, not even like the LARGE one we had previously. SMALL SMALL SMALL. couldn't finish+i'm feeling sick naooooz :(

lots of work not completed, and thr's math test tmr but i'm not even bothering to read through my head and body feel so stuffed w popcorn i swear. head. hurts. like. hell. w. t. s. damn there's 2.4 tmr i wna get A, its gonna be the last napfa event of my LIFE i wna do it properly!! but i haven't ran since the last time we were made to run.. so.. HOW SIA.

hope for da bezzzz!

anw tdy was good, took some of my doubts away i guess. but i still cnnt stop myself from thinking so much uh, damnnnnn my head. maybe tht's why i've been getting my headaches O.O

kk shall go drink some vitagen to facilitate digestion in my body, and lots of water to clear the high glucose level hopefully it goes back to normal soon cos i feel like the glucose level is maximum right now urgh why did i eat so much!!

buhbye~

#199

okay shit my blog posts are getting shorter and shorter and rly pointless but i can't help it idk what to blog abt at all :/

i rly prefer how things were last time, and i think/KNOW that you.. can't say here but wtbs i hate thinking abt it but i think it will rly just lead to an ending that i hate. i'm believing that it wld def lead you thr now yknow.

i sound FREAKIN INCOHERENT I KNOW. whatever.

anw day trip to msia was pretty cool but i'm rly tired, dk why either.

haven't done anyth tdy yet omg. yet another wasted wkend i think. alr have plans for th nxt wkend so i doubt its gna be any much fruitful either, crapppz.

caught 1111 just now, and i wish tht you wouldn't do it. i rly hope tht my wish comes true, i've been wishing it for many days now.