#191 lean on me

Lean on me, when you're not strong and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on~

whoooo sang w alumni choir for the first time tdy! and had awfully chocz cake cos it was MeiXuan's b'day celebration :) missed singing w ahs people so much hehe 4 guys:~20 girls tdy leh but they so steady!

laughed quite a lot tdy :D

and and, need to meet up w peidingeugexintange sooooooooooon :( and i hope everyone can make it lor seriously! we haven't had full attendance in a long long long looooooonnnnngggg time..

finished PLL s1 tdy, FINALLY eh. can't wait for s2 i wna know who's A! and i still have 3 more eps of glee! this wkend is sucha slack one whoo i really haven't touched any books at all since thurs yay yay yay totally LML (real one) for naoooz :)

short dinner+walkwalk on thurs, town on fri, and tdy was double choir prac. tmr will be fun i guess! slack ttm whooooo :))

but after this wkend, i really need to wake up alr zz stop slacking and MUST work hard for everyth alr mids onwards will be really important so i need to catch up on every single thing i've been lagging in (MATH) plus i can't stone in lecs/tuts anymore i guess sigh its not gonna work out for me if i keep this up cos i'm not smart like some people zz:( i can't afford to mess up my As. i'm turning 18 end of this yr so i should have self responsibility right.. and i should stop screwing up my life.

#190 MBTs are over.

i don't feel any form of relief but at least i can slack without guilt naoooz :)

lots of people said they didn't study (heard irl, fb, twitter) but i guess we shall see uh. like seriously.. chanty told me abt this person o.o idk what to say haha but why bother to be fake abt this sort of thing huh got study just say uh no biggie ah no one will laugh right! okay nvm this is stupid idk why i'm saying all these also.

just came back from Cathay w girls and (part of) th class. 5 of us had B&J! while lynny went for Suckerpunch w th rest hope she had fun :)

going out again soon haha no napping tdy (i hope) so tht my time can be utilised to maximum satisfaction :)

OH ANW I HAVE EFFFFFFFF-ING BAD SKIN NOW I SWEARR. i have patches of rash on my face i looking so fugly i wna dieeeee how what to do someone please help meeeee :(

ZZZ. and idk what's my plans for tmrr how sorry jans, though you won't even see this i think? hehe.

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oh and i need to shop now tht mbts are over whooo. shiats i'm still at home so late alrrr i've been using comp since 5 only stopped to bathe!! :(

1. new polish cos i'm bored of the old ones
2. new and nice shoes if i see any, even though nick says tht i have enough alr.
3. a board thingy dk how to say
4. clothes. i was rummaging like mad but still had nth so i'm wearing basics.
5. something novel hahaha love novelty items [that shop in Cathay (y)]
6. okay i can't think now too sleepy.

#189 dweebs/we will survive

sooo cute and sweet :)

anw i'm really giving up on math alr i guess. my definition of giving up is not th same as how other people see it. most people are like halfway through whatever revision, and cos they don't have enough time/no confidence, they say they give up on tht subj but get back a PASS. perhaps its not enough for them huh, but its def enough for me please.

math=no chance of passing unless a miracle happens which i don't think will:/

well and its not like i'll do well for other subjs. i'm not giving them up yeah i'll try my best to finish studying, really! all i hope for is tht i can pass :)

truly, madly, deeply.

anw i don't regret th time spent out hehe i had fun whooo.

oh and its just plain weird tht i saw random tweets (if you're reading its prob not yours) mentioning tht they don't mug and all blablabla haha they are just dweebs please who doesn't have to mug in jc huh come on don't act :)

we will survive the seemingly unending torture alright, all of us tgt :) wow, what an optimistic statement hehe this post seems to have lots of positives!

anwz, like what jinni blogged: 'MBT is gonna be the last wake up call for me' IT WILL BE.

need to fulfill what i set to do, starting naoooz. okay maybe after i sleep. so sleepy :(

hoping tht i'm not lulled into a false sense of security..

#188 hell, its thursday.

i think of so many different things at the same time.

it's freakin thursday alr yknow. papers start on tues. i've neither started on chem or math. bio and econs abt 1/4 done for each but idk how much of those are retained in my puny brain. and th EFFFFFFING construction is bloody noisy i tell you i shld have went out to study tdy but too late cos i woke up late and all alr :(

anw i wonder how's facing the As gonna be like? i think i'll just die.

going out tmr whoo. i know i'll regret it but hey i need to have a life hehe. alternate days of having fun! watched adjustment bureau ytd. if you don't like drama movies, please don't watch it.

hopefully i'll get stuffs tht i want tmr, shopping trip! :) shall resolve not to spend a bomb on food like what we always do, waste money uh :@

i just wanna pull through next week feeling good abt myself and not cry after th end of it all. please.

:D:

i think i'm bipolar.

#187 inferior complexity

try as i might, i still feel it. even on today when i'm supposed to study :(

5 hours to bed and i still can't get rid of unwanted thoughts! i only feel tht i'm lousier than them. i'm not gna bother you by telling you all of these alr i'm just gna post it here and if you read it.. well i very much doubt you would bother to.

GP TMR F. i'm so not prepared for mbts. probably gna get into every single SRP tht's available for me..

am i being stupid? but i keep feeling tht this is very real and i'm always going to be at th losing end.. they are just prettier and very much smarter than me fts.

let it be? :/

#186 SERIOUSLY.

idk what to say to people like you anymore. SERIOUSLY MANZZZZ get a life please.

stop trying to act like you're so cool..

anw, road race + everyth w fries + ice cream chef tdy! we are suay ttm tdy seriously everyone hates us:( but i like th passion kiwi sorbet! (jinni too!) let's have another good meal tgt soon nxt time no bad service please.

watched idol results just now whooooo th weird guy nv get in and th 3 girls i like all got in! :) watching Glee repeat on Star World now.. my GP essay is screwed ttm seriously idk wad to write.

my eyes are tired, i really need to sleep and wake up earlier tmr cos i'll be heading out i guess? yeah goodnight world.

babe i hope you're resting well and feeling better ily.