i have been feeling this way for many nights now and it is taking a toll on me. how do i stop this? clearer perceptions in my sleep than when i am awake, how can this be?
i've got terrible morning blues everyday at 7.20am, when i have to wake up for work. i am always so tempted to text my supervisor to tell her that i would go to work an hour late, but i am not going to be lazy anymore thus i force myself to get my ass out of bed.
i want to live a fulfilling life. i should start planning out all that i want to accomplish. firstly i need to start with my university/scholarship applications. i must be the most unenthusiastic person about all these applications for i show minimal interest in filling up the seemingly endless forms. then again, i wonder who really enjoys doing boring administrative tasks as such right?
oh, i don't mean to sound materialistic , but i really need money :( i need money to but whatever things i want, and to actually pursue what i want to do. i want to learn new things, but going for them would require a substantial amount of financing..
money makes the world go round. it all makes sense now. we live in a material world. i hate it but i can't escape reality just like that. i've come to so many sad realisations recently that it's driving me nuts when i think of them.