Friday, May 25, 2012

#278 independent i must be

i have no idea what is the meaning of this. it seems to me that you are portraying a split persona.

oh, what the hell. it really isn't up to me to control you anyway.

driving today was alright, hit the maximum speed that i ever went before and apparently it's Mab's max speed when she was still driving with L plate too. 60km/h seems scarily fast already i have no idea how i'm ever going to drive on the expressway. 6th lesson today, and it's about 2 months to my practical test! hopefully i will pass!

went to shop a little on my own and had blizzard again. no idea why i opted for that over Udders, though. i wanted to cheer myself up by buying a little something for myself but all the things that i wanted were not 'little' in terms of their prices even though GSS has started. or it was also due to the impracticality of my wants. do i really need a sparkler? the bottle is really pretty but it seems quite redundant. do i need a pair of flats that cost as much as the amount i earn in a day? (i earn a pitiful amount everyday standing at work, so i shouldn't be wasting an entire day's pay on shoes that are not a necessity right?)

Lord, do i need to rant now. i am so sick of feeling this way.

i need to be on my own. i cannot rely on you anymore. i see that now. i only can meet you when it is convenient and when you are not meeting your friends.

/you didn't have to cut me off