got back from work at 10. feeling extremely fat because i am approximately 3-4 kg heavier than what i used to be, what the hell. i am seriously extremely far from my ideal weight and am currently the heaviest that i've ever been in my whole entire life. woe is me.
perhaps i may sound shallow for being upset about this but it affects my self confidence and i don't have very much of that left in me now. really feeling like i am just a ball of fats rolling around going through the motions of life.
currently having doubts about my choices as well. all three schools offering the exact same course.. was this a wise move on my part?
and nick hasn't called tonight.. it's one of the rare days that he has been MIA the entire day. where are you? ):
extinguish it. come on, how long has it been already..