#204 we gotta hold on to what we've got

survived today when i only had 4+ hours of sleep last night due to insomnia! stayed out till 9+ somemore just to chillax at hk cafe ;) #proudofmyself

anwww, haven't been updating this space in a long longggg time ahahaha i've been lazy and busy going out alot instead of staying home to study properly. but i've got excuses too hehe i've had this recurring problem w my head uh my headache was constantly making me so damn uncomfortable and nauseous for quite a couple of days. thank goodness it's slightly better now alr:)

hm, bcme we've taken one paper each and i'm not feeling good abt this mids at all. i rly don't want this to be a flop like mids last year:/ but it seems like thr's no other way, from th way things are going....... Y MY 1111 WISHES NO COME TRUE? (haha elis you-know-what)

anw th hols were pretty good on th days when i went out to have fun, esp one special day ahaha rly loved it!

okay i'm rly ultra sleepy now sigh but still staying up for aussie model!! :) i have tmr to study for stats+chem.. cfm cnnt finish one OMGAHHHHHH. oh and i'm supp to study more pure math since i screwed up tdy's paper by doing 40+marks out of 100 only, but.. nvm no time alrrrr.

okay model's starting :)

#203 cranky much

i am ultra cranky now but shall try to keep my cool. honestly, i needed to sleep more why did you have to wake me up:/

feeling unwell now, STUPID FLU Y U COME TO ME.

i hope tht things will be better now, what w spa being over. i'm still sad tht i screwed up my bio so badly cos it rly will affect my future uh :/ okay, sob story no more imma be strong and carry on w life.

i want this wkend to be over soon cos i feel like i won't be doing anyth fun this wkend at all i want to go out for dinz w so many ppl next wk! :) hahaha.

had caramel frappe just now yay! but last day tdy alr, sianzzzz no more half price frappe! :< but tdy nick bought th venti one to share w me heehee ♡ satisfied my cravings for tdyyy! probably tmr i will want another one again though..

okay done idk what to update anymore my life is so so so boring..

#202 wholeheartedness

wheeeeeeee haha tdy was good :) productive day! like, not in terms of work lah didn't do anyth at all but had fun! went for a swim too but nv turn black heehee cos thr was shade just naiseee :)

had a fulfilling talk, and thr's things tht i have to achieve uh. hope i do it properly and tht things get better!!

uhhhhz, sigh needa get started on work alr. i need to really be motivated and turn on my engine which idk is thr or not hopefully it is or else i'm so screwed!! :'( no self pity uh it sounds b.s, no point whatsoever i think so i shall not be tht way just gna striveee as hard as i can.

shall do everyth w an open heart, and as wholeheartedly as i possibly can! so important now i hope i can do ittt. shall be determined and push my limits, cannot be so cui and give up on myself easily. need to rly just try hard. there's no second chance.

#201 is it just me? or..

are we? i feel like sometimes we are :/

SPA clinic tmr morning! sighers i think mr lim feels like i rly did badly for SPA uh! but glad tht he has given me another chance to practice before the real thing nxt wk uh! :)

i feel so uninformed abt everyth tht's going on ard me, like even when i wrote GP essay on elections, i couldn't think abt any single eg even though elections are like, NOW. hahaha own right :(

anwwww. whut? :O wonder who.. oh well i rly can't be bothered now but i feel so curious and everyth.. I WANNA WANNA WANNA KNOW!!

grr but i can't get distracted for too long, needa do econs elearning now and read both bio+chem SPA urgh 2 SPAs in a row!!!

let's not go bonkers :>