#157 sealed.

think i posted this before somewhere down there in one of th posts before uh. but i can't help it I REALLY NEED ONE.

feel like my life's screwed up alr. all thanks to promos.

everyone's relieved that they've passed subjects here there and everywhere, or at least S huh. i've gotten back 2 subjects: 1 S 1 U. FML ttm i swear i feel so demoralised now and although i really didn't want to *** in class, i couldn't help but *** in class :(

great willpower right. disappeared to th secluded bench area just at th corner of th class. called elis to *** somemore omggg. can't stand myself zz.

well, also got laptop case tdy, pretty! haha not as nice as th jap one uh but i'm happy :)

but i think i'm an idiot, left my bottle at 77th street counter when i was trying th case thr zomg-.- felt so embarrassed when i had to go back to get it!

life pretty much sucks alot for me now, and thr's cca + lots of pw periods tmr YAY. sigh th internet's not helping me AT ALL why can't i find any stats on vending machines in SG? :/ no stats, how to give evidence to th rabbit zz.

i want to keep my 4H2s. i promise to work hard, God.
i pray for peace in all my friends, and for myself too.
Amen.

i really need to learn to control my emotions more. i'm such a loser right. can't get myself to be optimistic anymore. i'm letting my parents down. so so very much.

i should just disappear.

#156 paranoia,

wlao wish i could look like that when i put on clothes like those.

promos in LESS THAN 20 DAYS. wts damn i am so screwed. up till now i'm only trying to catch up, not even revising much yet ughhh. i'm letting myself and my parents down if i don't friggin' pass every subj:/

i've not been a nerd but i admit tht i've been studying much more than wad i used to. just can't stand those (inserts bad word) who always say that they've wasted their time and not studied at all blah blah blah when obviously they mug super hard and night. these people will try to show that they were only slacking (not) the next day but every bit of work's done alr. i'm not referring to people from my schl uh hahaha most are just pure muggers. some forced to convert.

but thr's this one person whom i know proclaims to be slack uh but i know that's not th case. hahaha whatever i just to get it off. anw nobody reads this blog so its alright!

sometimes, if only we can all read each others' minds. life would be so much more simpler.

note to self:
stop having moodswings ugh. i'm getting on my own nervesss!
and stop being so bothered by those stuffs.
and pretend that th death-stare didn't happen.
and just take it that those were not seen.
and stop thinking about it.

but when i saw your look when you heard.. my heart broke.

#155 no.

look @ th 2 cute boys aww miss them so much wish they could come over soon :)

i really shouldn't be here right now yknow:/

ah, i swear life's been a bitch but i just gotta live with it huh. days are counting down, one by one. there's so much to do but so little time!

i wish i was a vampire-.- NO NEED TO SLEEP=TONS OF TIME FOR OTHER STUFFS! (right elis hahaha though you prob won't even see this!)

screw that hubit. irritating crap sia, whats with th rejecting of everyth tht we've produced? you just throw it back at us without telling us much about how we can actually improve on it and expect us to magically know. great job man i seriously wonder how your previous classes did..

i'm so tired now.............

GOTTA BUCK UP! FINISH EOM!
finish econs case study+ essay outlines.
vectors FOUR:(
ionic eqm tut/assignment+ alkanes.

start on revision too okay i really have to buck up now!
anyone who sees this please try and help to push me to do better okay? i can't afford to slack anymore!!

but its alright (NOT) because i lovehate the way you lie.

#154 fail.

everyone else seems so much more accomplished than me. MUCH much more, i swear.
fuck my life ttm.