#210 :(

my days of happiness ended today.

maybe it's because of you. i don't know who am i even talking about now.

it all seems to be a facade; how these few days passed. i experienced joy that i should have appreciated more as it seems so short-lived. i really need to learn to treasure the good times that come by as i would never know when it would just stop. and i need to take control of my life more.

#209 pseudo-end

but, it's ending soon.

just feeling super duper ultra worried for my results now i've not been feeling secure for any paper at all while others have had good comments for most papers. for example both bio and chem planning are just screwed up for me. like EXTREMELY, cos i alr know tht i have definite mistakes fml. just hoping for the best now and letting God do the rest :)

really wishing tht everything will turn out fine..

did a little bit of shopping tdy and spent quite a lot of time watching shows ytd night and tdy alr! hope this mood will wear off in a few days so tht i can start studying for mcqs haha if this goes on i will just die for my mcqs.

damnnnn looking forward to tmr, and even more so, THURSDAY whoopwhoop :>

heehee. hope to have a good haul tmr! but i think i wont be the one buying super a lot of things lor somebody wants to buy even much much much more than me!

#208 hmm?

i wonder if whatever i think in my head is true. really wna confirm all these nonsensical thoughts, somehow.

but i really hope tht whatever i think is not th truth.

fkin headache. i just want end of As to come quick. too much is clouding my head and its making me feel so terrible i swear. and i've got no one to tell all these to :/

#207 holiday, not.

5 days break: study/catch up as much as possible.

but it ain't happening! :(

went to explore MBS for the first time ytd w th birthday boyboy :) came out a tad late so we didn't have the whole day to ourselves.. but we were immersed in our own world for the afternoon and night and tht felt good. haven't really had time to ourselves cos of freaking school, so ytd was really good. can't wait for a getaway; either for a cruise or a stay at MBS it looks so luxurious!

had 2 surprises for the birthday boy, bbq last sat and baked brownies for his birthday! :D ahaha. glad tht he's happy.

wasted the whole of tdy slacking at home w th TV and tried to do econs but didn't even finish anything. i swear i am the most unproductive person ever wts am so screwed for life.

i need to sort out my life, prioritise everyth and leave the unnecessary behind me. cos this is the final lap i have to run and i should give my best, right?

okay on a side note, why are there so many people who have become so pretty?? unfair maximum i tell ya!